“I loved it,” she recalls of her past drug use, starting at age 17. The Grammy nominee has been vocal about her struggles with addiction, receiving inpatient treatment for the first time in 2011 after punching her backup dancer Alex “Shorty” Welch, who outed her for using Adderall during the Colombian leg of the .

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“I think my heart is always with Wilmer, I think it was with Wilmer, I think it is with Wilmer, I think it will be.

Because you don’t share six years with somebody and not give them a piece of your heart and vice versa.

“The less I have to think about food, the easier it is to go about having a normal life and I don’t want to let anybody down so when I do have moments when I slip up, I feel very ashamed. And when I feel lonely my heart feels hungry and I end up binging.” Lovato traces back her struggles with food to her childhood “The food came first, when I was 8 years old and my little sister was born, a lot of the attention was taken off me and onto my little sister,” she says of sibling Madison de la Garza.

“I had started working at that time and was under a lot of stress so I would bake cookies for my family and I would eat all of them and nobody would have any to eat.

“The most important fear to Demi is losing people, is losing people that she cares about and that love her.

That’s the most important thing to Demi,” Bayer tells viewers.

I’m pretty sure that I’m not going to meet anybody that compares to him but I’m trying to keep an open heart and open mind when it comes to that.” “Food Is Still the Biggest Challenge in My Life” Though Lovato is extremely proud of abstaining from drugs and alcohol for nearly six years, she has yet to effectively treat her eating disorder.

“When I was in a relationship with Wilmer I went three years without purging and when we broke up that’s one of the first things I did,” she admits to manager and confidant Phil Mc Intyre.

Manager Mc Intyre chimes in: “Looking back at it, I could connect the dots and see that there was an immense amount of pressure. Here she was squeaky clean on the Disney Channel, all types of moral clauses and just intensity around behavior.

Once the camera stops rolling she’s living another life she couldn’t really be herself she couldn’t be a normal teenager.“ From booking at 15 to confronting demons with addiction and living with mental illness, Lovato doesn’t need a documentary to remember what she’s overcome.

That was my first memory of food being that medicine for me.” Fast forward to the present, Lovato confesses “food is still the biggest challenge in my life” though she does not disclose the date of her latest purge.